I've come to the slow realization that a lot of my insecurity, shutting people out, and distrust is from how critital my mom is about my every movement. I literally apologized for standing next to someone today because I thought I was bothering them. I had to do a double take like "Wait I didn't do anything wrong?" She says she's hard on me because she wants to make me strong but... I think it just makes me cold. How do I begin to believe what people tell me when the sole parent I have doesn't believe in me?
People say I've changed, because I went on a purge and deleted so many people. It's not change on my end, you've all changed for the worse, and I don't wanna be around to be caught up in the webs people weave. Completely content with being alone for the rest of my life, until better friends come along.
Patsy Cline, Brenda Lee and Annette Hanshaw literally is my lifes musical purpose. Literally only reason I sing as much as I do, without them I don't think I'd have any faith in music. Being a singer back in the 1920-1930 range would have been heaven on earth for me. You connect to the music a lot more, you cry a lot more, everything's just fucking perfect.
So I just bought the WWE network subcripition, and my brother had no idea I did. Starts kissing my feet and crying saying how amazing I am and I just looked at him and said "I didn't do this for you, Thank Roman Reigns."
So I found out from a forum dedicated to Roman Regins that he only dates black girls, and he has truthful dick game in bed. I think my life is complete, this is better than fanficition on fifteen year olds blog.